You don't need to know any of this. But the things I don’t reveal are the things I hold closest and fear losing the most. I work overtime keeping them veiled. You don’t need to know that I walk around all day fearing the things that make me happy, and that I have been doing that for my entire half of my life. I've made mistakes in my life. I've let people take advantage of me, and I accepted way less that I deserve. But, I’ve learned from my bad choices and even though there are some things I can never get back and people who will never be sorry. I'm sorry I’m not the best with words and that I can never find the right thing to say at the right moment. And so whatever I’m stuck here, muttering the same words to myself over and over again. Stupid girl, why do you keep doing this? I wish your smile wasn't so adorable, I wish your hugs weren’t so warm, I wish that everytime you put your arm around me I didn’t feel like anything in the world existed but you. You’ve given me some of the greatest words to live by and I can’t thank you enough. Because the truth is I’m scared. Scared of getting too close, and to be honest I fear that I have already done that. I don’t want to hurt. But I don’t want anyone else to be hurt because of me. It’s all a big mess and I don’t know how to undo it.