The truth is that I miss you. And there isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t spend wondering how you are. What was once so natural, so wonderful is now, well.. nothing. You’ve gone on and I’ve tried my hardest to. You’re happy and I’m still finding a way to be. I just want you to know that I miss you, and I can’t wait for the day where this will all be forgotten, and I can be happy again. You were different, something new, something fresh, and what’s worst was that I believed every single thing you said to me. You were indefinitely my first priority and nothing could ever come as close as you. How could you forget something so significant like that? But we all know better - feelings faded, things started to get hazy and over in time, everything doesn’t feel or look so familiar anymore. Where am I? Who are you? I could no longer recognise this feeling between us because things got so drastic. How can someone, change overnight? Its not possible, but YOU, made it possible. Distance grew between us and soon enough, we were and we are still like strangers. Its like the love between us didn’t even exist. It hurts me to see it all put to waste right now. Yes, I still miss you through the long quiet nights and it ain’t gonna be that easy to replace you. Because of the fact that I actually had true feelings for you makes things even harder to get through and move on. But all of these doesn’t matter cause I just hope that you’ll be happy wherever you are, whoever you’re with. I’ll be like a star, looking after you, looking at you from afar because I will never be close enough to reach you. But always know, I’m here - always. And love how I wish I could close my eyes and make everything disappear. I wish I was numb to the world, I wish not one person could ever make me sad, ever make me feel anything at all. I just wish I was happy. My heart and my mind are constantly pushing and shoving and fighting for the right to how I deal with the pain and I cannot stand it any longer. Do I stay or do I go? My mind is saying I’ve had enough, it’s time to move on. My heart is saying hold on, just a little bit longer, he will come back. Do you have any fucking idea how much you’ve ruined me? );