Sunday, November 14, 2010


Do you ever wonder how life would be like if you could just stop, rewind and replay the past, this time doing things differently and saying things differently and just acting in the way you never did beforehand? Would the present change, if you went back and changed your past? Is there really such a thing as fate? Have you ever thought how can you fix something that was never meant to be broken? Life itself has given me the answer, in my knowledge of what is good and bad. However sometimes I feel there’s a hole inside of me. An emptiness that at times seems to burn. I have this dream of being whole. Not going to bed each night wanting. But still sometimes, when the wind is warm or the crickets sing, I dream of a love that even time will lie down and be still for. I just want someone to love me. And I want to be seen. Because of this, forgetting isn’t enough. You can paddle away from the memories and think they are gone, but they will keep floating back again and again and again. They circle you like sharks and you are bleeding your fear into the sea. Until, unless something, someone can do more than just cover the wound. The only thing we can do is let go. But by letting go, I am not implying “to forget” or “to ignore.” By all means, we should carry with us the happy memories and the lessons we have learned from our past relationships. However, we need to let go in the sense of releasing emotional baggage we may be carrying around with us, so that we may be open to, and present for, a new relationship. With that, say goodnight and go. Walk away from your past. You don’t need it anymore.